Changes

So, I am in a mood or something, because normally I am a job whore (meaning, I take any terp job that comes my way that I am appropriate for) but lately, when the agency calls me, I think, 'ugh, I don't wanna!!' and hope that they can get someone else, while letting them know that I probably can with some rescheduling. See that way they don't think I just don't wanna (which could result in less calls down the road) and shows that I am willing to go out of my way for them. Luckily, the ones I REALLY didn't want were otherwise covered. And the ones I was so-so about I covered unless they got someone else immediately. I hope I get out of this funk soon. I feel pretty much fine except for this. Finally got some good sleep last night after a couple days of pure tossing and turning! It was ugly.

Boredom

I am sooo bored. I am at a job where I am more here 'just in case' so I spend time on the computer. And I forgot my book at home cause I rushed out the door late because I didn't fall asleep well until 5 am-ish. So I am writing. And I have a very long day of stuff booked back to back until 10 pm. NOT fun stuff, work. Not that I hate my work, but I am just saying, I have to be on my toes, except obviously a bit less so at the job I am at now. But when my client needs me, I drop this and run. Not literally, the client is right next to me. :)

Old Loves

I ran into an old ex of mine, pretty heavy duty relationship back in the day. He told me that he is still in love with me. I told him I am married. I don't love him anymore, not that way, but I care about him and I feel for him that he hasn't moved on. It really doesn't make sense to me that he hasn't, it was a pretty rough relationship. I can only figure that he has idealized things in his memory and it isn't allowing him to let go. And it makes me relieved that I could move on. Whew.

Updates...

So, I had to go in this past Wednesday for further blood work....eck. I hate getting blood drawn, I have horrible veins in my arms, they can't find them so they can't stick me there, so they always have to use the back of my hands. If you haven't had this done, let me assure you that it hurts more there. And for some reason, they can never get it the first time. Ugh. I screamed like a 5 year old. But I manage to joke my way out of the office, so I don't think they hate me too much.

Anyway, they still believe that I have PCOS but the first blood test wasn't conclusive, so they are running more in depth tests. Fun for me. I am really psyched though, cause I think there may be some resolution in sight. So I should have some results by Wednesday or Thursday. Keep your fingers crossed for me...