Sunburn

I was at the pool this Sunday, and I had my friend spray my sunblock on, wasn't out more than 2 hours total, and I have blotchy red spots of sunburn, it is bad enough that I got sunburned at all, but it is insult to injury that it is blotchy! Ugh.

Changes

So, I am in a mood or something, because normally I am a job whore (meaning, I take any terp job that comes my way that I am appropriate for) but lately, when the agency calls me, I think, 'ugh, I don't wanna!!' and hope that they can get someone else, while letting them know that I probably can with some rescheduling. See that way they don't think I just don't wanna (which could result in less calls down the road) and shows that I am willing to go out of my way for them. Luckily, the ones I REALLY didn't want were otherwise covered. And the ones I was so-so about I covered unless they got someone else immediately. I hope I get out of this funk soon. I feel pretty much fine except for this. Finally got some good sleep last night after a couple days of pure tossing and turning! It was ugly.

Boredom

I am sooo bored. I am at a job where I am more here 'just in case' so I spend time on the computer. And I forgot my book at home cause I rushed out the door late because I didn't fall asleep well until 5 am-ish. So I am writing. And I have a very long day of stuff booked back to back until 10 pm. NOT fun stuff, work. Not that I hate my work, but I am just saying, I have to be on my toes, except obviously a bit less so at the job I am at now. But when my client needs me, I drop this and run. Not literally, the client is right next to me. :)

Old Loves

I ran into an old ex of mine, pretty heavy duty relationship back in the day. He told me that he is still in love with me. I told him I am married. I don't love him anymore, not that way, but I care about him and I feel for him that he hasn't moved on. It really doesn't make sense to me that he hasn't, it was a pretty rough relationship. I can only figure that he has idealized things in his memory and it isn't allowing him to let go. And it makes me relieved that I could move on. Whew.

Updates...

So, I had to go in this past Wednesday for further blood work....eck. I hate getting blood drawn, I have horrible veins in my arms, they can't find them so they can't stick me there, so they always have to use the back of my hands. If you haven't had this done, let me assure you that it hurts more there. And for some reason, they can never get it the first time. Ugh. I screamed like a 5 year old. But I manage to joke my way out of the office, so I don't think they hate me too much.

Anyway, they still believe that I have PCOS but the first blood test wasn't conclusive, so they are running more in depth tests. Fun for me. I am really psyched though, cause I think there may be some resolution in sight. So I should have some results by Wednesday or Thursday. Keep your fingers crossed for me...

Eh

I am too tired to bother adding to the last post. Maybe one day. Guess if I want this dream to happen I better buy some lotto tickets, eh?

Millionaire

Growing up, I said that I didn't want to be a millionaire, not that I would say 'No, thanks' if someone walked up and handed me a few million with no strings attached. But the idea of working toward a goal like that just didn't appeal to me. I just wanted to be able to have a stable, solid life, a home, and to have the ability to put my kids through college without breaking. In this time of economic instability, I have changed my mind. I want oodles of money.

The sad thing about this is that I have no plan or way to get it, other than winning the lottery. I spend oodles of time dreaming of what I would do if I were to win the lottery. Buy my parents' beach house, buy a friend a house, buy myself a big whopper of a home. Buy my mom her own home. See a theme here?

I would Gift a bunch of people in my life with things like exotic and wonderful trips (for ex, roma), and cars when needed. I would go on a crazy shopping binge, to fill up my new house. Although I wouldn't fill it up TOO much, I want a clean, uncluttered beautiful home.

I would start a business to keep up my new lifestyle, and as a safety net. I would create a department store for "Real" sized women. Size 10 and up, it would be like Lane Bryant, but bigger and much better. It would have everyday clothes, work clothes, undergarments, swimsuits, basics, glamour clothes, trendy clothes, formal wear, accessories (because big girls need different sized necklaces, bracelets and anklets too, quite often). It would be one stop shopping with a few other little niceties that I won't post here just in case I ever get to do it so that noone steals all of my ideas!

And most importantly, I would start a plan that I have to help single mothers. I would start in Raleigh with a whole apartment building. I would renovate it so that it had a floor of classrooms, a cafeteria, a gym, a laundromat and a medical office. It would almost be like its own little city. Outside we would have a bit of land, enough to have a big playground, some tennis and basketball courts, and a pool that would be able to be uncovered for inseason swimming and covered for year round.

So what I would do with this building now that I have it all set up is to allow single mothers, starting with homeless women, and then with poverty stricken and so forth, to move in, with their families. The apartments would vary in layout, and they would be somewhat small, but well laid out and comfortable. These mothers would have to train in a vocation or get a degree, with specific work intentions, at a local community college or whatever.

Their children would be supplied with basic necessities like clean clothes and such. They would be in school of course. The cafeteria would feed everyone breakfast and set up lunches for the kids to take to school, and it would feed the children below grade school level while the parents and older kids were at school. Of course we would also have high quality day care on sight for those younger kids.

Everyone would be required to contribute to the whole. Parents would not have to get outside jobs the first year (families can stay a max of 2 years, more about that later). They would have nights and weekends free. The mothers would have to teach a class once a week (anything from another language, cooking, knitting, anything that people might enjoy taking) or commit time to helping babysit other kids in the building, or time in the cafeteria. Older children will be required to do similar things. They will help babysit, help in the cafeteria and help tutor younger kids.

All school children are required to maintain at least a C average in school with incentives for higher grades (such as trips and such). Tutoring will of course be available at the home. All children must be engaged in some sort of structured activity whether it is a sport, being part of a school club that is active (meaning actually takes part in activities, not sitting around and talking for one hour a week). After 16 years old, they may take an approved job off site as long as they maintain their grades. They will get help with prepping for college and applying for scholarships and financial aid, as well as getting guidance counseling in general.

All families will be required to enter family therapy for a minimum amount of time, and then for as long as the inhouse therapist deems necessary. This is because these families will likely be coming from difficult situations where the kids and moms were likely exposed to upsetting situations and they need to get out from under all the drama.

The daily rules about living in the home would be quite strict. This would be a place for a family that is serious about changing their lives, not for people who just want a hand out. No males over 18 (that aren't relatives) would be allowed in the building except in common areas past 8 pm. The exception would be for males that came in as 17 and are still in high school. Moms are discouraged from dating if they aren't already in a relationship, but the men they do get involved with are not allowed to stay over ever because that is inappropriate. This is to keep the mothers focused on their goals as well as to keep children from being exposed to potentially negative men (when moms have a habit of choosing 'inappropriate' men it affects the kids). Moms are expected to be home every night (sleep at home, not out with men or partying). If moms need to stay somewhere for a legitimate reason they must leave contact info with the concierge.

There would be constant activities for the kids and the families to do together, movie nights, international food nights, classes, sports activities, and periodic outings, such as trips to museums, movies, theater, amusement parks, and sporting events. The cafeteria would not be open for the nights or weekends unless to cater a special event.

I mentioned a medical office. There would be a 24 hour nurse onsite, with a doctor on site weekdays and Saturdays for basic preventative care and minor issues.

We would have a concierge that I mentioned earlier, this person and their staff would be in charge of keeping track of guests registered with the residents and maintaining the use of the home vehicles. There would be a number of large vans and smaller SUVs for use on outings and for taking families to the grocery store and on errands. There would also be a few 'rental' cars onsite, owned by the home, for use when reserved by licensed drivers (moms) for family things.

My goal with all of this is to give these moms not only a workable skill, but to help them and their kids get a taste of what life can be like, and to enable them with the mental, emotional abilities to succeed in life. More to come, I am getting kicked off the computer....ahhhhh!!

Movies

So I have been on a total 'going to the movies' binge lately. I have seen Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull, Ironman, Prince Caspian, You Don't Mess With the Zohan (got dragged to that one!), Sex and the City, The Happening, and Get Smart. All of these I saw within a week of opening. I liked them all.

Indy was a bit cheesy, but fun and nostalgic. Ironman was AWESOME, and I didn't really expect to like it nearly as much as I did! Prince Caspian was better than the first, much faster paced! Zohan had its moments. Sex and the City, LOVED it, I don't care what the naysayers claim, it was fun! The Happening was very interesting. I liked the explanation, and it had some funny moments, Marky Mark is a hoot. And I have to say that I was quite surprised at how funny Get Smart was. I figured it would be cute, but I was really cracking up!

So there is my movie corner. Hope it helps some people make some very important summertime movie going decisions :P

Help me! Project...

Hmm, so a bunch of my friends that have posts have 'projects' that they post about. I want to be a copycat and do that. But what should I do? I am thinking to watch all of the Best Picture Academy Award winning movies, in order. Any ideas for me?? BTW, props to Summer and Courtney for giving me the idea (not to mention, love the voting thing Courtney, stole that too!).

Nothing much...

is going on at the moment, I feel as if I am getting a mini break. I have had a lot of last minute, and long, assignments lately and spent at least the last 3 weekends in a row out of town, so this will be my first weekend in town in a while. I was supposed to be out of town this weekend, but the kabosh was put on that, which while I was GREATLY looking forward to my plans, I am kinda relieved to have some down time at home. I will AIM to do some housework, organize some things, etc. What will probably happen is I will clear out my backlog of programs recorded on my Tivo (what a miracle box that is!). And late and long naptimes. Yay. Hopefully, I get something productive done. We shall see.

Oh yeah, I went to the doctor and got my first physical in almost 10 years. Actually the last one was in January of '99 when I had to get one to start working at a High School. So luckily I know I am good on my tetanus shot for another year. One less needle is a good thing.

I am getting tested for Diabetes (my request, family history, weight, etc) and getting my cholesterol checked, eck. And my doc thinks I have polycystic ovarian syndrome, which if I do would actually be a relief, to be told some of my issues are based on something quantitative finally! Finally something somewhat good, since it can be treated. I have to wait a full week to get the results though. Wish me luck.

Oh, and they only had to stick me twice to get the blood, which is the best anyone has ever done, so I was pleased, and I only cried out once, and not in an overly obnoxious way! I even had the nurses cracking up. So I deserved a lollipop, but since I am trying to watch my sugar as a preventitive measure, I turned it down ;).